Are You sure?
If you know me, you know
my family, and then you know that we are already quite a "pack". A
six pack to be exact. When we got married, Michael and I talked of starting our
family. I wanted a bunch, he wanted two. Forward, several years, I won. We had
4. Seemed to be a complete family, you would think. We felt
complete.
Well God had other
plans. About 3 years ago, I felt the calling to adopt. I felt it so strongly
that I was brought immediately to tears. God and I had quite the wrestling
match at that time. You see I was in graduate school, had a house full of
madness, and "I" thought I had all I could handle (safely). I
mentioned this crazy idea to Michael and being the supportive husband he is, he
said "ok, we will pray about it". So for the last couple of years, we
did just that, we prayed.
During this time of
praying, I really questioned if it was "me" He was speaking to and
not someone else, who you know, has it all together. Surely he wasn't talking
to me. I mean there are days Lord, the little munchkins are lucky they get fed.
Life is crazy. Right? I mean after all, I’m not super mom, I don’t have
it all together, to be quite honest there are days we just survive. But time
after time after time, the Lord reassured me "yes, YOU". Throughout
this time of us praying over this as a family, the Lord laid a heavier burden
on Michael’s heart for the fatherless. Now there is no escaping this thing
called obedience. No turning back.
Ok, Ok, I'll stop
arguing. We will do it. I mean after all, my answer was right in front of me, I
knew it all along. I studied it often, but the Lord knew we needed time to
prepare for what is in store for us. It is not about me or us, it’s about
Him. James 1:27 “Religion that is pure and undefiled before God, the
Father, is this: to visit orphans and widows in their affliction, and to keep
oneself unstained from the world.”
This past summer, it
became real. So real it hurts, it aches, and there is no way of turning our
backs now. We had the opportunity to be with the orphans. It hit us and it
hurt. The eyes of those beautiful children are engraved on our hearts forever.
To hold a child whom I have never seen, and to ache for weeks to see these
children again was confirmation that indeed, I can do this. I have no choice. It’s
not just a suggestion from The Lord but a command. We have seen, our eyes have
been opened. Proverbs 24:12 “Once our eyes are opened we cant pretend we don’t know
what to do. God who weighs our hearts and keeps our souls knows what we know
and holds us responsible to act.”
I am so very proud to call you all my family friends <3
ReplyDeleteThis moved me to tears, I love you all and can not wait to meet the newest lil Price and help in any way we can!
So excited for you all! Love you"
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